To think 2020 was awful, going into 2021 has not been the best either. From a totaled car, to being sick for weeks with the flu, finally got better and was overwhelmed with happiness when I found out I was pregnant! None of the bad stuff even mattered anymore.

Unfortunately, I got too excited too fast, from already online browsing for baby stuff, to imagining the gender reveal and getting happy thinking about my first ultrasound and hearing that little heartbeat, as my pregnancy test lines got lighter and lighter by the day, my whole world was shattered with the confirmation call of my chemical pregnancy at 4 weeks this past Thursday.

Through all the heavy bleeding and not wanting to get out of bed, dreading to go pee and slowly losing all of my pregnancy symptoms I would say this is the worst thing I’ve ever been through. :(

BUT, with all of that being said I’ve decided I have to stay strong and my boyfriend has been nothing short of amazing through all of this and reminds me that when this is over, we can try again and that’s what’s slowly bringing me back to happiness!

Hopefully this year will get much better than what it’s already been. ❤️

& for anyone else going through losses I am so so so so sorry but we will get through this and get our baby soon!

& to all the pregnant mommas, congratulations and I wish you a happy healthy 9 months. 🥰

💙💚💛❤️💜

Positivity is key for me from now on. It’s the only way to get through. ☺️