I recently got back together with my ex boyfriend of 2 yrs...after me breaking up with him after I proposed and his response was..." I only wanted to marry my ex". (From 5 years before we even dated) and it threw me into a dark place. I started seeing my best friend and I couldn't do it because it quickly turned into an abusive and toxic situation that i didn't see coming. But I saw I was groomed for. My ex came back into the picture for a few days. I started seeing him again. He was different. The months apart hes grown. Gone to therapy gotten better. Wanted to gain my trust back.

I was happy. Got back together.

One night I decided to try and edible and I got insanely sick. Dizzy. Felt like I was weighted down and unable to fully wake up.

I woke up with flashes I thought were dreams. My I felt my bf having sex with me while I was laying on my side. I closed my eyes and was like "he wouldn't. I'm having a nightmare" (from past traumas)

I woke up before work.. and felt wet down there and was worried I started my period. I rushed to the bathroom and what I found.... shook me. I was already feeling weird. Couldn't tell what was real what wasn't. It was cum. Obvi. I was terrified. My heart sunk. I started sobbing. He wouldn't. Its over. Oh god. The shock.

I went and woke him up and asked if anything happened and he said "we had sex. I feel really bad. I'm so sorry" and in like sorry about what? "Oh idk"

Me "I don't remember anything" "I seriously don't" "I didn't realize how much the edible affected you and that you didnt wake up.. until I was done.. and hejust panicked and felt so bad.. but I couldn't handle it.. whether it was an accident or not.. I broke up with him instantly. And left for work.

This has been the worse week of my life.