He has hurt me so much that I think I don’t love him enough anymore. We are married almost two years dated 4 years and he only ate me out like twice while we dated. We have bad bad fights really bad nasty fights we have cursed at each other’s and everything put hands on each other. We started having problems due to me being angry about my ruined sex life because of him I need to get eaten out I had a tongue toy but it’s not the same I’m even frustrated my tongue toy broke I have a collection big collection of sex toys and he gets mad I buy a lot but they calm me down but I want my husband to do it. He likes getting his dick sucked he has hurt me and sometimes I remember our fights and things he has said I orgasm during sex but sometimes my mind wonders. I just remember how my ex ate me out all the time he was the first man to eat me out me and my ex have a 5 year old son and me and my husband have a 1 year old. I’m just with my husband because well he can’t move out in two years he gets gis permanet green card. I want to leave as soon as I can. I swear if another year goes by like this I’m going to go fucking nuts and punch the wall. I have to just cry for now until all this could be over. He will pay for my plastic surgery since tax season but you guys might not understand the damage he has caused me at the begging it was all good but then marriage pregnancy boom a living hell marriage. I was pregnant and for our wedding day no sex it was 12 o clock at night we got back from party he went to sleep and I still resent him for that so much. I’m depressed just cry every day that’s all I have left to do and see old pictures of when I was happy and we were happy.now those memories are bitter sweet me and my ex talked about how I felt and he said that I was the one who wanted to marry him and it’s true well my ex wanted to get back with me but I felt in love with someone else my husband now I never ever imagined this. He barely kisses me hugs me. 💔💔💔I loved my husband so much guys until he stopped paying attention to me I started thinking more about what my ex did during sex and my husband doesn’t. I’ve just felt so much resent towards him and yes I’ve talked to him I’ve tried to go to couples therapy to also sex therapy to spice things up and nothing. I’ve dealt with this and tried to save my marriage but he doesn’t want to he says we don’t need couples therapy and that it’s not necessary to do that to a women. I was such I happy women before I was happy and satisfied now it’s ruined.