Hello. I am new to this group and looking for support. Here is my short history breakdown. I have a healthy 14 yr old boy. This may be sensitive but its my truth. I had an abortion after him. I carried on in life and had a miscarriage very early, then a stillborn at fullterm, 39 weeks. Its been 10 years and haven't had any pregnancies and not with lack of trying. I had a miscarriage in 2019. I am now 24 weeks with my baby girl. And I find myself terrified of everything. I had a scan and have notching. And baby's fluid is low. I go back in a few days for another scan.

At first, I found myself unable to believe or accept this pregnancy. It just didnt seem real. The more appointments and seeing her and hearing the heartbeat I got attached. The more I get attached the more terrified I get. Especially with the news of notching and low fluid.

Sometimes I feel these random strong pulses in my uterus which I know is not baby and idk what that is or what to think.

I bought a Doppler for home so I find comfort in hearing her heart beat when I get anxious. I'm scared for her to have to come early and all that could go wrong. And I'm scared to keep her inside too long and have history repeat.

I haven't told anyone besides close family. Its like I'm scared to be excited and joyful when I know I should be. I feel guilty for putting stressing on my self and her.

I just need advice i suppose. Or support. Sometimes I just want to ask my doc to live at the Hosp and keep me on a monitor until delivery day.

What should I watch for on the Doppler?

What can I do for the notching and low fluid?

How do I make sure i am going to give birth to a healthy baby who's gonna live a long healthy life? 😔😔 I'm so emotional about this