Me and my partner have been together for 5 years. We have a 4 1/2 year old daughter and a 2 year old son....

Sometimes I feel like on special days like my bday , Christmas or even Valentine’s Day he doesn’t put much effort in. I understand that theirs some men who aren’t romantic but I feel like he doesn’t try as much as I would like him too.

Example : a couple days ago he said that today for Valentine’s Day he was going to wake up early so he can wake me up to my fav Starbucks drink and my favorite bakery item from there. I was excited for just that.

Today comes, he sleeps in until 2 PM y’all, 2 PM.

I woke him up a couple times and he still fell back asleep. Why? Because he decided to drink alittle too much the night before. Mind you he fell asleep at 9pm last night. But this is not the first time he does this.. he has done this a couple other times on the night prior of us having plans.. he ended up buying me a cute rose teddy bear but by that time, my mood was killed. Not because he didn’t get me what he said he would, but he didn’t even say Happy Valentine’s Day... He showed no empathy or effort into today.

My Valentines today was ruined, I legit cried while doing my makeup.

I then expressed my feelings to him as I was crying tonight and it didn’t seem like he cared.

I know I deserve more. I deserve better. It just kills me the fact that what if the kids grow up without us together? I know that they’d like for us to be happy even if we aren’t together but the thought of it kills me. I’m only 25 I have a whole life ahead of me. At this point, I’m just tired of it all. His drinking problem, his video game problems, and not taking consideration into my feelings.