So, I have legit been in therapy to build self image and self esteem so I have literal psychological help when it comes to coping with self esteem if that makes sense??? And that’s been going on for years because I had severe anorexia and I had to stay on top of that.

So I got cheated on after years. And I always thought that if that happened to me, my self esteem would be destroyed. He’s sleeping with his boss, his MARRIED boss. And when I found that all out.. I busted out laughing.

My immediate thoughts were “me? Someone cheated on ME? WHY? Im fine as hell. Tf.”

“Oh man, he’s gonna lose that job real quick when her hubby finds out. Hahaha.”

I think a lot of it didn’t come as a surprise because his boss was sending gifts home with him, telling him what a sweet person he was. Liking everything on his Facebook, texting his phone blowing it up. Going out of her way to make him feel special and he was always defensive of her.

This is so mean. But she’s not that cute. Not once have I compared myself to this woman, I personally think he lost his mind. It’s like that job he got brain washed him into thinking he and his coworkers and boss are this family that are better than everyone else.

He would get so mad at me when I would say “yeah I had ‘family’ type jobs too. Them people are not your family. They will replace your ass within a week.” He would get livid at me for saying that, like seeing red. Y’all it was so weird how this job completely changed him and now he’s so far up that woman’s vagina that I’m like oooof.

That’s gonna crash and burn sooo bad boy and you don’t even have a place to live for free anymore because I kicked you out.

I was the one paying the bills, I made him get up off his ass and get an actual job and now he’s dug himself such a deep hole.. inside that married woman’s cooter. He crawled so far up in there it gave him brain damage.

I’ve been waiting a little over a month to wait for the major blow to the self esteem. The “why wasn’t I good enough.”

My mind is like “I am more than enough, this mf really out here dumb af.”

Screwing a woman whos old enough to be his mom that’s been married for 20 years.

I have second hand embarrassment yall. When he left he told me “you are not good enough.” Or something along the lines of that, And I laughed in his face. He was acting like he went to Harvard law school and became better than me when he makes $10 an hour. I make more than him. because that’s what his job told him. They made this guy think he was above everyone and everything and he’s gonna fall so hard when that man finds out a little man with a big head is screwing his wife.

Yikes, hope he doesn’t kill you. That’s legit how I feel about it.

This dude is a legit idiot. Oh my god.

It’s so crazy how a bad relationship can alter your view of reality because now that he’s gone I’m like.. why did I ever..

why did I pay this mans bills. Good lord.

I’m not heart broken about this at all and it was a 6 year relationship and today is Valentine’s Day and i mean, of course I’m not here alone. There’s a man asleep with his head in my lap. I look at him and see everything I missed out on when I was dating an idiot.

I’m just thinking about everything like.. wonder if the husband knows yet. I’d be so mad if I found out a dude that looked like a noodle thought he was gonna steal my wife.

I’ve thought about telling him myself but I just removed myself from all of it completely, like

I’m out. Y’all weird.