VENT/RANT AHEAD

So this is my first pregnancy/baby and it was all good and I was excited (I found out really early), and I still am excited but I’ve been constantly sick and throwing up since I was 6 weeks and I’m now 13 weeks and I just feel like I can’t take being sick anymore. And I feel like I can’t be excited anymore because I can barely eat or stop being sick to think of anything else. Zofran doesn’t work for me anymore, and phenegran doesn’t help me eat it just knocks me out and then I have a headache. I’ve cried all day today because no matter what I always throw up and I can’t help it, I’ve been so down and depressed today and having thoughts of abortion and I just feel like a bad mom already.