My body played a cruel and nasty trick on me this month

1 week before my period was due. Nausea, dizziness. Vomiting. Smells making me feel ill. All the symptoms. I was desperately trying to not let myself get excited. To even hope that this had finally happened.

Today. I got my period.

I've never hated my own body as much as I do today. 7 years of disappointment. I'm so fed up of this. I desperately want to continue this journey. But I'm running out of steam. I feel like it's all getting too late and I should accept this will never happen.

I feel broken that my body won't do what it's supposed to.