I need some advice. I just fell pregnant with my 3rd child while on birth control, pull out method, and exclusively breastfeeding. My husband finished inside me once in the past 6 months. I was still being cautious...I thought the odds were in my favor but it only took one time. I’m not happy about it. I was suicidal and had severe postpartum depression and anxiety and I am so afraid of what I could be capable of when I am overwhelmed. I will have 3 kids under the age of 3. My husband and I never considered abortion but he watched me fall apart for the past 2 years. I had ppd with both my kids and still in counseling (I had my 2nd 6 months ago. We are terrified of me going into a pp psychosis :( has anyone ever had to consider ppd to decide abortion was the best?

I just want to hear stories to decide. That will just make me feel understood. That’s all. I’ve watched someone close to me go through with abortion and she is miserable and regrets it everyday. I don’t want to feel regret on top of my mental health not 100%.

I’m so torn.