Y’all omg , I’ve developed this horrible obsession of testing myself trying to get a darker line . And I think I’m

Starting to scare my bf bc now it’s to the point that he’s trying to hold back his excitement but I’m so scared I’m finna lose this baby too and I’d really hate to ruin this for him but I’d also hate to get excited and relax and then BOOMM chemical pregnancy #3 then I’m depressed all over again he says not to worry bc even if this baby doesn’t stick he now has 2 gorgeous baby girls ( my biological kids) plus his 1 son (my step son) and it isn’t like it’s the end of the world bc I’ll be pregnant Again ! bc he’s not pulling out 🤣🤣 but still that’s all fine but I’m pregnant NOW and this HASS TO BE MY RAINBOW BABY 😩

A little feedback for those that haven’t seen my previous post i had 2 back to back chemical pregnancies.. September and October of 2019 never got pregnant again untill I met my now bf and I got pregnant within 1 cycle (versus with my chemicals I got pregnant within 4 or 5) the last chemical I had a faint positive that kept getting faint .. I loss my first one a 4w5d and the other at 5w3d (I THINK) and I’m only 4w2d according to my app and we’re snowed in so my appointment today got canceled sooo ima just not test again bc I’m stressing myself out and test again at 4w5 and 5w3 to see if I’m still pregnant & if so I guess I can relax a lil

also let me add my test lines are all staying the same and aren’t getting any darker.. only when the test dries up is when it shows me “progression”