Insecure

So I want to start off with saying my fiancé is an amazing guy and I love him but I’ve been struggling lately.

I’m just curious if I should be bothered by this. My fiancé and his buddies have like a hangout in our back garage. It’s like their hunting crap man cave area and the other day we were child free so I went and hung out for a little while with them. Well during that his friend was showing everyone naked pictures of this girl he is hooking up with right now and I could tell my fiancé felt uncomfortable looking at them but I played along and just ignored it. Well that was a couple weeks ago and today I asked him if that happens all the time and if it does, does he look and comment or what does he do. Well he admitted that he does do that but his friend doesn’t really give him the option of looking. And he said it’s unfair of me to ask him a question like that because I’m just looking to pick a fight. Well I didn’t get mad or anything I just asked and then dropped it.

But Along with this I have been catching him more lately checking out other girls and watching girls dancing and crap on tiktok and just stupid shit like that and when it happens I’ll try to just be like oh she is pretty or just play along with it. It doesn’t usually bother me. But the more these things happen and I’m noticing it more the more bothered I’m getting. Plus he tried to just play it off and giggle.

I am 31 weeks pregnant and so not looking my best m. But I don’t remember the last time I feel like I got a true compliment or even had romantic bed room time with him. I try to do that kind of time with him but he just isn’t interested. We have been together for 6 years now and ever since I had my daughter it’s like he doesn’t touch me at all unless he feels like he has to. This sucks as my love language is physical touch and affection.

Any advice or comments is greatly appreciated I’m feeling really crappy about myself right now.