I absolutely adore my bf. He's wonderful. But recently my friends started to tell me that I do a lot more than him. I tend to spoil him and whatnot. Nothing expensive, I just frequently gift him sweet small things that remind me of him. Most of the dates we have are my idea and when he plans a date, he usually just suggests we stay at his house (which I'm fine with then he's not ignoring me with his video games) I say nothing of course because I don't want to be the nagging gf and he loves his games. I am quite a chatty gal, and he's a pretty muted dude so it's hard to verbally get reciprocated energy. We recently spent the whole day on valentine's day together, it was the best day ever. We had a cute candlelit picnic in a park near his house and I prepared all the food. His job was to sit there and be pretty lmao. Normally I love this because I like having control over simple things like planning events or food. But one day I'd like to be the one that gets spoiled even a lil bit. When I give him presents, I usually make him something meaningful and beautiful, something I'm proud of and I put time and effort into and doesn't cost a dime. So far, his gift giving thing is giving me clothes that dont fit him anymore. Which is nice, I love smelling his scent on a sweater when I sleep, but I kinda hope for more thought. I could excuse it by saying he doesn't have a job and I do so he can't afford a good gift but as I said, I rarely spend money for gifts. I feel so bitchy and materialistic for even saying this stuff because I know he's probably doing his best. I just wish I understood his love languages so that I could get on his level. But for now, I guess I'll just continue doing what I'm doing.

Ps. I know most of these issues can and will be solved by proper communication. I WILL TALK TO HIM IF IT BOTHERS ME ENOUGH. But atm I'm kinda chillin. I just wanted to vent. Thank you❤