I am too old I feel like to have bitterness, and hate.

I feel like those things take a lot from you even if they are just. They take control over some part of you and I don’t want to spend my life with hate in my soul.

So I just want to post something to my ex.

I literally do not want to contact him but I want to say something to him and I know that if I DO, he won’t leave me the fuck alone and I’ll be verbally attacked.

I forgive you for cheating. I forgive you for emotionally neglecting me, for leaving me on the night I needed you the most to save your reputation. It was always everything else>me

I know I am not a perfect person. I apologize for my part in our relationship ending.

But that is it. I don’t want anything from you.

I hope you have a good life, because we spent a long time with each other, that was a lot of years I wasted and no matter how badly you fucked up, there will always be love in my heart for you as a person. I hope you become a better person.

I needed to get this out to find some peace in my heart. I needed to admit I still have love for him.

But I’m not talking to the MF. Ever again. I’d rather be trampled by a horse.