Was my baby not breathing?

When I gave birth, it was very traumatic. I had a full blown panic attack because with my first I had complications and I was scared on top of the epidural being placed in a window which meant it didn’t work and I felt everything which didn’t happen with my first. Anyways, when I pushed my son out, he was silent, no cry or anything. They laid him on my chest, he didn’t move or cry. I kept asking them if he was breathing but they didn’t tell me anything (I’m assuming because I was already freaking out). I asked them why he wasn’t crying and they said “give him a second” and they kept saying it while they rubbed/patted his back, he cried like 30 seconds after. They again, never told me if he wasn’t breathing or not because after birth, I hemorrhaged which resulted in another panic attack. So, ultimately I never found out if he wasn’t breathing when he was born.