I have a 25 months old toddler and I’m a stay at home mom. I’m still breastfeeding but my goal was 2 years and I’m actually getting super tired of it and really annoyed. The nights are okay but during his daytime nap he just wouldn’t let go of me and if I sneak out, he will sleep much less like 30 minutes instead of 1,5-2 hours... But I just cannot stand it anymore, I want my body back, I want my partner to be able to get him to sleep, I need to have a break for my sanity. He’s also teething, his last teeth are coming at the back plus he’s learning to speak and his motor skills and brain are developing so I understand he’s often frustrated, he’s also 2 years old so its a phase full of tantrums, he wants what he wants, but the thing is, he’s always on me, in my aura, always clinging onto me and I love him more than anything but right now I could cry and I just feel like I want to smash or throw something to get my frustration out. I need some personal space. I gave myself to him completely since the moment he was born and I’m grateful for this long journey of breastfeeding we’ve achieved but I really want it to end now. I don’t want to be impatient with him, I feel guilty for wanting some time alone. I started a new crafty hobby recently and I would really enjoy it, it takes my mind off of everything that’s been going on and I just enjoy finally learning something and creating something with my hands but I can’t sit down for 5 freaking minutes because he’s clinging on my neck and I know he wants to play with me but All the time??? He does play with his dad but when it comes to sleeping or calming him, feeding, any of his needs, it’s only me. I don’t want to sound like a bad mom, we do play together a lot every day, I pay attention to him as much as I can, Im always patient with him, I hold my feeling inside but I’m a human too and I’m just tired of this. I can’t do anything. I can’t sit down, I can’t do my hobby, I can’t have an hour for myself in peace and quiet because he won’t let go of my boob at nap time. I feel so guilty for feeling this way but ugh I neeeed a freaking break from being a mom every now and then.

How do you other mamas manage to have some time for yourselves and not go crazy locked up and being needed all the time?? 😩

Please tell me I’m not the only one feeling this way 😭o