The bleeding started on Saturday - at first it was just spotting. But I’d been through this twice before so I knew seeing red was never good news.

My doctor and I agreed to do bloodwork on Monday, and again on Wednesday to compare levels.

But by Tuesday night I knew there was no hope this pregnancy I wanted, that I dreamed of and that I hoped for would be viable.

My bloodwork confirmed it today, as well as a phone call from my doctor. October was supposed to be an amazing month but not anymore.

So now I’m drinking wine.

Please treat your pregnancy as a blessing and cherish the journey you are on. Inevitably, woman will come here and bitch and whine about cramps, tests, peeing too much, and general discomfort. But I hope that even as you lament the pains of pregnancy, you remember how special it is and know that at least one woman wishes she was still expecting an October baby.

Best wishes to you all. ❤️