Man Diva

I’m so annoyed by my fiancé I’m starting to wonder if he’s the one for me ....

My fiancé is High maintenance a lil too high maintenance! My fiancé often needs his hair washed and braided , eye brows plucked , finger nails and toes nail clipped it’s like everyday he needs something personally done to him and it’s service from me . if he doesn’t need to be pampered it’s sex , oral sex or what we call squeeze one out ( hand job) at first it didn’t bother me as I didn’t work and didn’t have much going on now I work full time in management and go to school ! When I get home I always cook dinner then he needs something or more food after I cooked him a full meal ( greedy ) and if I say I’m tired he gets upset . It’s like I need time for me ! He thinks because he makes good money and pays majority of the bills that that’s enough and that’s all he has to do . He doesn’t cook he doesn’t clean he doesn’t wash and he doesn’t listen ! When I ask him things to not do like pee in the sink he does it anyway ! It’s like I’m not your mom or maid ! I recently got another job added to my position which takes more of my time he complains about me being on my phone while we watch tv which I feel is such a waste of time ! I’m starting to feel like where growing apart I tell him all the time I’m currently breaking generational curses and bringing generational wealth to my family and I can’t to that by sitting around watching tv laying under him , I must be productive ! I listen to gospel and affirmations and motivational speakers he loves hardcore loud rap and I can’t help but think what’s its doing to his spirit. Weirdly on Sunday’s I always wake up and clean and make a big breakfast and while I listen to my gospel music he grabbing me and telling me he wants sex ! Like dude right now ! Let me do me ! I’m going crazy ! Where so opposite I can’t help but to wonder if I had a man more like myself would I be happier ? He thinks money solves everything but I believe life here on earth is temporary and short and the most wonderful things here can’t be bought with money I wish he would take the time to step into my world because I’m changing and I don’t want to leave him behind ( I’m about to take off ) but my walk here on earth is for the Lord and not him ! Even if he’s about to be my husband .Don’t get me wrong he’s a good man but I feel as tho he lacks compassion for me and others and can be selfish only looking out for what’s best for him .

He told me before we went to bed the other night it would be sexy if I hold his hand while we sleep like sleep is the only time I shouldn’t have to be responsible! But no it makes him feel good if I hold his hand as we sleep ! I’m not really looking for answers I really just wanted to vent without people judging me and saying I’m ungrateful I know opposites attract but I wonder is being too opposite causing me to have to work harder towards my goals .