I’m late! Scared to test Incase it’s negative :(

Hey ..so my cycles have been short since my miscarriage - and DnC in September, they used to be 28days and have been ranging between 21-27 days mostly 24/25 I would say though. Today I’m on day 30, still no period. On day 25 I took a test and it was negative. On day 27 I had one small bit of pink discharge / spotting and thought my period was on its way as i had been cramping a few days prior and up to today. But yet I only had that one instance where I spotted and nothing else since. I’m scared to test I keep telling myself it’s normal for a cycle to get up to day 35 (even though that isn’t usual for me) and because of the cramping I keep thinking it’s got to be on it’s way. I know I should put myself out of my misery and just test but I’m scared of seeing negative and at the moment I’m living in hope - silly I know! Anyone else been 3 to 5 days over their usual cycle and then had a negative test?xx