Ashamed but here it is

So I've been a mom for almost 8 months, and during that time I've only taken care of my hair a handful of times, including shampoo and condition. Its all the way to my butt and I always have it up in a bun. Well...I know I said I didn't have time but I know I could've made time....I just really have had a bad time adjusting to motherhood, putting my needs in some kind of prioritized list etc. We only have one car and every time I have tried to go get a haircut my husband insists that the baby goes...so I just don't and he is an asshole for that but whatever.

He isn't to blame tho...I have been suffering from PPD and haven't told anyone. Not even him because I couldn't put a name to it until I talked to my doctor virtually about it yesterday. She prescribed me some medication and im hoping I can fix my hair soon. Ladies...my hair is so matted...I may need to cut it idk. Its bad, and im so ashamed. Last time it was this bad was when I was four and my mom didn't feel like brushing out my hair. My husband tried to make me feel better saying my hair is beautiful up in a bun or up in matts...thanks babe....but really he hates short hair and I think he would rather me not deal with it because he knows ill cut it as soon as I get it fixed.

Any tips to getting matted hair out. I don't want to make a professional do this because I'm afraid it's so much work and they may not take me on which would lead to more embarrassment.