I swear I'm not ungrateful and I've had interviews with no luck yet. I am tired of being broke all of the time. I am tired of being stuck at home with kids ALL of the time. I am tired of my spouse shaming me every time I say I want a break from the kids. I need a break. I want me time. I feel a lot of resentment towards everyone right now and I feel suffocated. I want time away from the kids, the spouse, the dogs, the house, all of it. And I'm so sick and tired of being broke all the time. My spouse busts the hide to make bills but is constantly buying stuff they don't need and it is so aggravating to me. I wouldn't do that especially because we don't have a lot of money in the first place. We can talk about it and then boom, 2 weeks later same bs. Just so frustrating. Sorry but I needed to vent.