first time

my boyfriend and i had sex for the first time last night and i was a virgin so this was my very first experience going all the way. it was...underwhelming to say the least. i know your first time is not gonna be perfect, but i was kinda expecting more :/ i wasn’t feeling much pleasure and i found myself kinda hoping it would be over soon not too long after we started. i guess i’m just wondering if it gets better? because if every time is like that then i don’t think i’ll ever want to have sex again 😭

side note: is it common to feel pain during doggy? that was one of the positions we did and it really hurt. it felt like he was stabbing my cervix the whole time