It's very frustrating when my family talks to me about church and God. My aunt asked how I was because she knows I've been going through some shit lately. I tell her and she asks me if I've found a church yet(I moved 800 miles in September). I tell her no and that I haven't been on the best term with god/church for a few years.

She tells me "please reconsider a relationship with god. I love you and you are always in our hearts". She didn't push further than that, which I am glad for, but I hate it when people say stuff like that. If I want to get back into church or build my relationship with god back up, I'll do it because 'I' want to. I don't think I ever will though because I'm not even sure if he's real. I believe there is a heaven and hell and I believe there is a god and devil, but maybe not exactly what I grew up being taught. I grew up in a Baptist Christian church and as nice as it all sounded, once I was 18 shit happened and church/the people werent all that great.

If you want to go to church and put all your faith into a man that only helps those that are 100% devoted to him, by all means, you do you, but I on the other hand am taking a break from this religious stuff for as long as I want