I suffered a miscarriage in July of last year and had to have a D&C. I was devastated and felt that my world was crushed. I had no idea I was losing my baby at all. I was working two jobs part time and being a mom to my 9 year old daughter full time. I had abdominal pain but it wasn’t intense at first. I was able to get up and help my daughter with school go back to sleep then get up again to work anywhere from 9-5 and then some days I had to work my second job from 6-10 and wasn’t getting home until 11. I felt so worn out and upset with myself. The day after finding out I had lost my baby I went right back to work like it was normal. Then the pain got worse. Ended up in the ER for the D&C. Two days later I went back to the ER only to find out I had Pharyngitis something I had never heard of. I was told I barely had any tonsils left and told to rest my voice as much as possible. That presented a challenge because I worked in customer service for both jobs. One job was fast food at Hardee’s and the other a cashier at Food Lion. I was in a bit of a terrible position. I had lost my baby and was losing my voice the more I talked. I prayed and asked God what I had done so wrong to experience that, his only response to me was he counted me worthy. I felt a sharp pain in my chest because part of me felt it wasn’t fair and the other part felt like I had no right to question my Father’s plan. I cried inwardly for what felt like an eternity. Days went by in a blur. Talking about my pain wasn’t easy. I wanted to be mad at everyone around me because everyone saw my actions yet no one attempted to console me when disaster hit. I have healed a lot since then. On October 29 I took a pregnancy test because I hadn’t seen a period and thought it might be normal. It said positive. I was in a total state of denial and took another the next day same results. I said it wasn’t possible and ignored it. I tested again in November and got a positive result. At this point I was concerned and went to the doctor and she confirmed I was pregnant yet couldn’t tell me how far along I was. After a couple more doctors appointments and an ultrasound I was told that I was around 15 weeks pregnant and I was shocked and unsure how to feel. I’m very grateful in the end I am actually expecting a baby and I recently found out that I’m having a boy. I’m excited. Thanks for all the prayers and support.