Is it normal to be extremely upset when you find out you have a huge cyst on your ovary?

It’s just.. the feeling I had when the doctor put the ultrasound on and all I see is this huge black spot on the screen IMMEDIATELY, I mean literally immediately. pic here

and he said it’s a large ovarian cyst just full of blood. It could rupture, but he said he’s going to give it 8 weeks to subside and if it doesn’t go away, it will be removed surgically. The chance of it rupturing is low.

I KNEW I had PCOS, I’ve been knowing that. But seeing this thing live in action was..honestly it hurt emotionally. I asked him “am I still gonna be able to have babies?” And he said “I really do think so yes. It’s just this guy has gotta go.” And he explained then that if this thing is here, it will cause irregular cycles, cause me to stop ovulating because it.. something to do with communication between the brain and ovary, my head could only see a black hole.

I’ve named the cyst fred. Fred is hurting right now, when he did my pelvic exam is where he found it and he disturbed it and now it’s like alive and aware and it’s mad. He rolled this thing around looking at it with the vaginal ultrasound and feeling for it during the exam.

Fred, I want you to know. You can bite my ass. This is my body and you don’t belong here. I want babies some day, and you can’t be here fucking up my ovulation.

Fuck you PCOS you nasty TOAD.

IM SAD OKAY. I struggle a lot with feeling like my body is broken, doesn’t work right. I know I’m lucky, it’s not some cancerous growth. I can still have babies. It just upset me to see it

Someone has made me aware that my evil cyst Fred kinda looks like a fetus.

Here is a picture of my uterus, it’s a side view. In the middle you see my IUD sitting very snuggly in my uterus. There is no fetus. Only a bloody monster named Fred.