So in 2007 I had my first of 9 miscarriages. I survived, started college and my life. 2017 I had my 8th miscarriage, found out I have MTHFR, Fibroids and no clue if I could keep trying. I was about to get married and kept living. Fall 2017 got married, Summer 2018 got divorced... he cheated and claimed he didn't want to keep trying for a child. 2018 got with my now boyfriend. 2019 had 9th miscarriage. Kept living and surviving. Today had my heart broken from an ultrasound. I have 1 11cm fibroid at the top of my uterus, 1 6cm fibroid at the lower part of my uterus, an enlarge uterus with a strong possibility of more fibroid due to how thick the uterine walls are. How do you survive, how do you live when you know that if they are right there is no hope left. How do you survive the probability of never having your own child. What do you do? I don't know how to answer this. I want to sell everything and run away. What can I do, how can I continue when the one thing I keep wanting, hoping, praying for is so far out of sight. Who do you turn to when no one can understand what is going on. Please help me figure this out.