Borderline Personality Disorder

Hi I’m writing on here because I don’t really know where else to talk about this, but people with Borderline Personality Disorder how did you come to realise that you had the disorder, because of course not going to self diagnose myself or anything, I just don’t feel comfortable to face a counsellor or anything about what I’ve been going through lately. I just want perspective of someone with the disorder before I may see a professional, I just don’t want to come to terms with any mental health issues I guess.