I’ve been with my husband since March 19th 2016 .....

He left me and everything triggers me . I can’t sleep at night because I close my eyes and have flashbacks of our memories together. I hear a song that reminds me of him and my stomach just drops . I can’t describe the feeling .

I have our photos on my phone and I vividly remember the day the picture was taken .

He’s been so cold to me and says he just doesn’t feel that love for me anymore .

Of course rejection hurts . Everyday I cry over him . Some days I feel okay and I do my makeup and get dressed up and other days I look horrible and can barely get out of bed .

These past few days I’ve been feeling kicked down and haven’t had the energy to even change out of my pajamas or eat anything . Waking up feels like a chore . I love my son and take care of him but when he sleeps I just start crying because I feel terrible that he’s going to grow up without his parents being together.

I’ve been acting crazy I admit , I send my husband messages telling him I miss him and the next message will be telling him that he’s a cold hearted person that I need to leave alone . It’s so hard .

He’s been acting completely fine and doesn’t miss me or his family at all.

It feels like I’m the one suffering and aching for my family back .