Yes I know so please no bashing me or telling me to leave him because I know I’m stupid.

I probably already know all these answers I guess I’m just in denial. I’ll also probably say some typical Lifetime movie shit. I will also be posting anonymously just because well I know I’m dumb.

I’ve been with my husband almost 20 years since we were kids. I know he abuses me. I guess it’s abuse anyway. Sorry if I’m rambling or bouncing subject to subject but tonight he had “a spell” as I call it.

So he’s working out of town and got mad at me because a friend of mine tagged me on FB and said feeling crazy. I could tell, hell I can always tell when something is wrong or bothering him because he’s stand-offish or doesn’t wanna talk or won’t even say I love you when we hang up almost as a punishment. But he questioned about it tonight. He asked why so and so tagged me and said that. I said idk just being funny. He then says we’ll didnt you talk to her after? What did she say? What did you say? Why did she do that it’s kinda weird. I’m just like wtf and kept acting cool, changing subject etc. he ended up saying he was going to bed. He’s not in bed tho I can see him on social media. He gets in these moods often. So my question is what is this called? Why is he doing this? To me it’s almost like he doesn’t do well with change or if I do something different if that makes sense. We have a lot of issues. I’m also the one who posted last night if anyone remembers about my mom situation. I have never ever in our entire relationship hurt him or cheated. He’s the one that has and he always treats me the exact way I should treat him. I just don’t get it. And yes I know I should leave him but I probably never will. When things are good they are great. He takes of us. He has bad moments. It’s like he’s 2 different people.

Has anyone lived through anything like this? It lasted? Things changed?

His mom said his father was same way. His dad lives alone now and single but the sweetest most caring man you would ever meet. Sometimes I wonder if my husband will end up like that.

Last night he told me he wanted a divorce because of the other situation I posted about my mom. Then this morning he said he was sorry. I’ll add that in case anyone missed it.

When he’s drinking things like this get heated more than normal.

I’m not sure if you can comment and remain anonymous so if I answer any questions I’ll add to this posted. Just keep checking.

Below is post from last night