My story is kind of long so bare with me..

I gave birth to my son 10/19/2020, and failed with breastfeeding due to flat nipples and him not doing well with a nipple shield, it was stressful for the both of us.. A week later I was admitted into the hospital without him for mastitis, they didn’t give me a pump the entire time I was there so I went 24 hrs without pumping (I think that could be a reason why my supply tanked and ruined it for me) I was pumping every 2-3 hours when I got home. I have tried everything to increase my supply.. I pump all day (still doing 2-3 hours) and only getting 4.5-5 oz ALL DAY. it’s taking a toll on me and I’m starting to become severely depressed.. so I’ve finally decided to try and end my pumping journey.. I’m crying as I type this because I’m so heartbroken and feel like I’m failing my son, he only got one bottle a day and that was before bed.. Has any other momma gone through this? How did you cope with ending your journey? 😔