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Hello, I just wanted to make one last post here. I went in for my 3rd beta yesterday. It was not good news it dropped from 90 to 40. I will go in tomorrow for another beta, but it's over. The nurse told me it's abnormal at this point. After the appointment tomorrow I will stop all meds and wait for the inevitable. I am crushed and I wanted this baby girl more than anything. Unfortunately, my husband is gone on a job and won't be home for a couple weeks.

Thankfully my mom came up to be with me, but it's just not the same.

To say I am depressed is an understatement, today I have been a walking zombie.

Thank you all for being amazing and I wish you all the best!