Lost hope...

I have tried to just let it happen when it happens. But we are going on 4 months TTC. The past 2 months I literally just stop thinking about it. Trying to just enjoy life. But the past few days I have really been in a down mood. Wondering if I will get my “big family”. I know I should be happy, I have been blessed with 3 beautiful babies. But something inside me has told me since I was little that I was meant to be a momma of a big family. I have lost 2, and 2 of my sweet little ones are rainbows.

I guess this is just a post to ask for some encouragement. Or to see if anyone else out there is going through the same thing. To all you mommas out there TTC for your miracle I am sending you lots of baby dust!!! I pray that you are blessed with the amazing feeling of being a momma. Idk what I would do with out my babies.

To all of you beautiful mommas that have gotten your BFP Congratulations!!!