i’m 21 y/o my bf and i have been dating for about 7 months and i’m not on birth control. he’s always known this. we had sex all the time for about 3ish months. twice a day sometimes... a few months ago he started getting onto me about getting on birth control because having sex without it (even with a condom) made him super nervous. After a month went by and i hadn’t gotten on BC (it made me nervous and i have strict parents), we had an smallllll argument about it but we got over it. in the past couple months however, he rarely has touched me. I try to initiate all the time and he never reciprocated and always rejects me saying he’s tired or it’s too early or he wants to play his video game or he’s simply not in the mood... we have had oral a few times but not in the past month. the last we did anything was on my 21st birthday because we stayed at a hotel and got drunk (we did an*l. not even all that fun for me.)

anyway.... i’ve asked him why he doesn’t initiate or why he never wants to and he jsut says he’s tired and doesn’t know but he just “doesn’t feel like it lately.” it keeps me up at night and makes me so insecure that it is ruining the relationship for me. i don’t want our relationship to end and i know it shouldn’t play such a big part in the relationship, but it’s actually nonexistent and it painfully hurts my self-esteem...

i know i should talk to him but i feel like i’m gonna just keep running into the same answers that are just gonna keep me guessing...