so my boyfriend and I are 20 years old and have been together for a year. I love him so much, I really want to take this to the end with him. I never knew I could feel this way about someone. he has become my best friend and treats me so well all the time. he got an opportunity to apply to a thing at his work where, over the summer, he’d go to another state for about 3-6weeks and train people at their facilities there. he has always had a thing for traveling and leaving our state when he gets older. I don’t have that same yearning for traveling and leaving our state... that’s one thing about our relationship that scares me. idk if I can leave my family and everything I have here for good.

anyways, I can’t help but to feel like every time he tells me he wants to do this work opportunity I don’t want him to go. 1. the one he wants to go on leaves the day before my 21st birthday, which I don’t know how it would feel like a birthday without him 2. my friends from college leave my state for summer and he’s the only person I would have here. we see each other often and it would be hard to go that long.

idk. I started a fight twice because I don’t want him to go. I would never admit that but I really just don’t. I feel so disgusting and selfish but I want him here on my birthday and I want to spend time with him when summer starts. he told me I can go with him but with my summer school, idk if I can. any advice??? :/