4 days late but scared to test

I’m currently 4 days late for AF but I’m still scared to test... tested on day of missed period with evening urine, negative of course. I thought I saw a VVFL but I also have line eyes now I threw the test away expecting AF to come within the day or two. I have like on and off light light cramps. Goes away within 5 minutes. Now I’m 4 days without AF and I’m still scared to test :( I don’t want to see a negative again.. not sure what to do! I did also have sex the day of missed period and only when I wiped immediately after when I peed there was light pink spots. Didn’t “spot” since.