I don’t think that my mom understands that learned behavior can come back to haunt you. Now I’m doing the best I can to stay positive, my job brought back major anxiety (my hands were shaking half the time) I’m just trying to do the best I can to be an adult and take care of myself can somebody just understand that?! Like come on my grandma is getting out of the hospital soon we shouldn’t be at each other’s necks or getting defensive. I was never able to really communicate without her over talking or getting defensive, this is why I just stay quiet or write a song. I can’t keep repeating this same cycle of bullshit.