We have been trying for 3 years and 4 months. We've had some basic tests (blood, semen and internal ultrasound) all of which are normal. My cycle fluctuates between 27 to 40 days but to be honest I think that is stress related (please don't tell me to stop stressing). We're in Scotland and I've been told until I lose weight the NHS cannot do anymore tests. I weigh 15st 12lbs having lost 3st already and have another 3 to lose before we can go back to the doctors. I am an emotional eater which doesn't help. I just wanted to come on here and post something because no one can understand unless they are in the same boat. My husband blindly believes "it will happen". I don't want to speak to my friends about it, who are happily raising their own babies while telling me about their sleepless nights and sending pictures. I know they don't mean to hurt me and are probably deliberately sending them to me so as not to exclude me from "Aunt"ness (if that makes sense). I see all these adverts and celebrities in the news talking of pregnancy and nappies and all things baby. I see the <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">Glow app</a> on my phones homescreen and it makes me feel bad about myself. I don't want to be positive I want to wallow and wrap a blanket around myself and just be miserable (and eat a kit kat).

I'm sorry if you have read this and it's made you feel negative too but for now, I just want to be selfish.