Post Miscarriage Dreams

I had an awful dream about 3 weeks post d&c. Let to dark thoughts and an emotional day. Anyone else have these kind of dreams.

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In my dream I am laying in my backyard. It’s night but bright like a full moon. My body is like a star spread out. I try to get up and I realize there are roots growing under my body. They are deep and I can’t get up so I scream. Its raining and I continue to scream because I can’t get up.

The next day I wondered why was I laying down. Then I got it. During our miscarriage I spent time on toilet flushing the clots down after each contraction. Our baby is in the septic tank, decomposing among waste (literally shit). In my dream I am directly above where our septic tank is. After I made the correlation I regretted flushing the tissue and not giving our baby a proper resting place.

I hope I don’t have more dreams like this.