You see. I've known for a few years now that ai struggle with generalized anixety (self-diagnosed). Due to many factors i won't get into. The most recent anxiety I've been experiencing is that of being in a new relationship with a man whom I never thought I'd pick. But I did.

Now my last relationship was at the end of 2019. I met my hispanic half in the Summer of 2020. I was sure that i was ready to pursue fully with my heart layed out oh a platter - but. Mentally I wasn't. And he saw that. He knew it. And even so, with our first date being a doggie date @ the park, we talked about many things. We became close & he planted a kiss on me. They say a first kiss tells you everything, this one just about did.

Now from that moment on I put the poor dude through a run around. My anxiety began to surface with a flood of all kinds of questions..would I be good enough on all fronts? Would I be a good enough woman? They say the less questions you ask, the longer you will live. It's true.

So I am just going to be thankful that he is still here and decided to put up with my shit a year later. Everytime I closed myself off, all I could think about was him and it would make me very upset that it wasn't going to be me on his arm. So I realized that, that in fact is love. Love comes all in forms and that is a sure fire sign that you should not let that person go.

It is total bullshit whoever said that if you love somebody that you should let them go. That is when you stay and build on it & support one another.♥️

#endrant #mademypoint