Missing Him

This is the day after locking me in the room to yell at me and beat on the wall. Told me I was playing the victim again and that I can do this sh*t on my own. My 14 yr old daughter tried to get in the room. She later told me that he’s always so aggressive and thought he was going to do something to me. Things aren’t getting any better and he doesn’t like to apologize because he doesn’t see the point. He was gone by morning and I didn’t hear from him at all yesterday. Even with everything that’s happened, why do I still miss him?