Think I’m out 🥺

Yesterday at 12 dpo had light pink when I wiped once or twice, today 13 dpo i had a bit brown when I wiped. So I’m guess af is on her way to piss me right the f?!$ off. The only thing giving me the tiniest bit of hope is that I feel like throwing up everywhere but that could be from af as well. Does this ever get easier? I ask as I sit at my desk and cry at work, been ttc for over 2 years and only one chemical this whole time. Over the disappointment over the tears 😭. I just don’t understand what I did so wrong to deserve this. Sorry pity party...