Does anyone ever feel like they want to die but then again you don't want to leave your kids?? I haven't been myself lately. I havent left my house in a year. I told my husband I feel down but he always changes the subject. I love my husband and kids I'm happy with my life it's just I feel so alone even though I'm not. It won't go away no matter what I do. I'm really good at hiding it so nobody really knows I feel this way.