before people come for me, i am not complaining about the posts here or saying that i’m some bitter person lol.

i love love so much and it’s so cute seeing people post cute little stories about their SOs or their babies. like really cute. pretty sure i’m just PMSing since i’m on my period, but an hour ago i was reading the post on here and i just felt so miserable, i just broke down. i turn 19 next week and i’ve never been in a serious relationship. i’m always been pretty and super likable but not enough i guess. i always lie and come up with fake stories when people ask about the past relationships i’ve been in. too embarrassed to say i’ve never had a boyfriend. people have liked me before and i’ve been approached recently (by creepy old guys ew), but it just seems like nobody i’m attracted to is attracted to me back. i met this guy a month ago that i really like. we’re long distance but he would always text me and send me photos basically everyday sometimes every other day. he even told me he liked me. things were going great until sunday when he told me he was going through a lot, i told him i’m proud of him and i’ll give him his space, and he literally just left me on read. four days, no text still but he’s definitely posting on social media. ugh.

i just want my person too ya know? i want someone to care about me and feel like i’m worth having a relationship with. and it just makes me so jealous to see people having that, multiple times, and i can’t even have it once. like my ultimate life goal is to one day have an amazing husband and family. i don’t want children out of wedlock so someone has to love me before i even can unlock that dream someday far away. sometimes i really think i’ll be alone forever. anyways i’m done ranting. you guys are cute💙