Today was a bad day! I lost my temper on my toddler.

We were getting in the car and she refused to get in. I pulled out all my tricks. I bribed her, I gave her the option to get in by herself or let me

Put her in. She said she wanted to, that never happened. I repeated this his 2x and each tome she refused. I told her ok I’m going to put you in. Thats when things went south!

She then went in to fit mode. Screaming, archer back, kicking, etc. I’m 5mo pregnant and was losing this battle and i started yelling.

Long story short 10 min later she’s still screaming and refusing to get In and I’m done. I finally grab her and put her in myself and it’s mass hysteria. I was so mad I gave her a pop on her cheek (not hard) but enough to shock her since I never hit.

She then just screamed and I strapped her in.

She screamed the whole way home

And I cried silently the whole way home.

I’ve only lost my temper like this one other time and now feel like a terrible mom. And feel like I took it too far and that other parents never do this. And have their stuff together. Definitely feeling like a failure and hope my 2.5 year old doesn’t remember me screaming and hitting her.

Sorry for the long post but today was hard and could use some solidarity

Ps. When we got home, I gave her hugs and apologized for getting upset and hitting her. She seemed to have forgotten about it but I’m not ok.