No one gets it

Hey y’all I’m new to the group! Technically not yet in the ‘secondary infertility’ category yet as it hasn’t been a full year. But this will be our 7th month trying, and it’s hard to find someone to relate to!

Me and my husband conceived twice together, the first time not trying (ended in mmc 12 weeks) and the first cycle following that conceived my 16 month old. I was totally naive in thinking that we’d get pregnant again that first cycle.. now I’m just hoping that we’ll be able to get pregnant again at all.

My cycles have been irregular since weaning from breastfeeding and going off birth control months ago. 25-35 days, ovulating late around CD 20 and a short luteal phase 9-11 days. I took proov tests (that test for progesterone post O) last month and they were all negative. Talked my GP into doing some bloodwork, so waiting for that later this month. I’ve tried all the things, also tried not trying and tracking too. Uggghh.

I don’t want to be insensitive to anyone here who has been trying and struggling for much longer. But everyone I know either got pregnant with their second child so easily or is struggling to get pregnant the first time. I feel guilty that I should be happy for what I have, but my heart is yearning for our next baby.

Anyone else in the same boat?