11DPO and impatient

I’m scared my AF is gonna show up!! I kept experiencing mild cramps and hot flashes since 1DPO. Now my cramps are starting to feel like almost like a period. I’m getting backaches on top of it now, too. I had such hope that this was going to be maybe the month but now I don’t think it will be. I’m so sad that my body has to disappoint me every month.

I’ve tested on 9DPO but it was a BFN. I’m scared to test again but I just want to know already!!!

My AF is supposed to start in 3 days. 🥺