I recently found out I have fatty liver disease. I also have a 4cm cyst/mass on my liver, and as some parts of my bowel that have had too much restricted blood flow.

I’ve never had any health problems like this before and I’m scared. I spent so much of my life being depressed and wanting to die that now, when I’m finally afraid for my health, I feel desperate.

I don’t even know what’s wrong with me yet or how serious it is and I still find myself clinging to my children and sobbing to God in the shower, over and over, “I don’t want to die”...

For such a long time, I didn’t think I had anything to live for so I abused my body with food, drugs, alcohol. But I don’t want to die anymore.

Can someone please pray for me? For my kids? I just want peace... and a little more time.