I be wanting to vent on here but some of y’all can be so rude and judgmental like you’ve never made silly mistakes in life or relationships.. we’re all living and growing right? Anyways tonight I have a really heavy heart and need to vent.

Here I am 15 weeks pregnant with a baby girl (which me and my EX Boyfriend planned) I’m calling him my ex because I just broke up with him a few days ago and kicked him out. I got fed up with the disrespect.

We’ve been together for 2 years, known each other for almost 6. I held him down while he was in prison when he had NO ONE. Of course I fell for the jail talk thinking he would treat me like a Queen when he got home and show me the upmost appreciation and boy was I wrong. He’s only been home 10 months and within 10 months he been mentally, physically, emotionally and verbally abusive towards me. He says it’s my fault because I don’t “act right” 🙄 He accuses me of things that I don’t do, like talking to other ppl. He calls me snakes for no apparent reason, every time we get into an argument he throws things, breaks things, set things on fire, run up on me like he’s going to hurt me, and then storm out the house and be gone for hours..

Every time I’m around and his other baby mom calls he doesn’t answer the phone but when I’m not around he answers. Which is odd because I have NO PROBLEM with him communicating with her due to the children.. but he makes his self look so guilty instead. Every time I confront him about his sneaky behavior he throws the biggest temper tantrum ever!! It’s ridiculous!! Oh and last week we got into it in his car and started hollering at me, threatening to smack me and crash the car. He called my mom trying to manipulate her and get her on his side but my mom knows her child and didn’t fall for it.

Every since I been pregnant I’ve been trying to avoid arguing but with him he doesn’t care it’s almost like he wants me to have a miscarriage or something.. when I kicked him out a few nights ago I was at my breaking point. He came home smelling like black and milds and liquor trying to be touchy with me. I screamed and told him not to touch me. It was close to two something in the morning, haven’t heard from him all day and he wants to come home like everything cool 🙄 . So we ended up getting into it in front of his son. At the time I didn’t know his son was in the house. I was in my bedroom and his son was in the living room. I felt bad but I also felt disrespected. So he tells his son all these lies about how I don’t like him and don’t want him around and that’s why he never gets him! I was LIVID because that is far from the truth. He CHOOSES to be an absent father! He hasn’t seen his son since November!! I get on him all the time about getting his kids and at least calling them and he brushes me off! He really sat there and tried to manipulate his son right in front of me and blamed me!

Oh and before any of y’all say “if you knew he was a dead beat why did you get pregnant by him?” I DIDN’T KNOW! He wasn’t physically abusive the whole time he’s been out, his mask started to fall off over time.

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