All the feels

I just found out I am pregnant again and I am excited but terrified to be excited because the week of Christmas we found out that while my body thought there was a baby there was actually no baby. I am scared we are going to go through that again. I told my husband and he agreed with me. We want to get excited but can’t until we know. So much so I am debating when to make an appointment because I am still a day before I am supposed to start my period. It was so hard to have to cancel our follow up once I had to have a DNC that I don’t want to make one and then end up having a chemical pregnancy.