Awkward history

My husband and I are both on our second marriage. During my first marriage I had a miscarriage rather early on 6 or so weeks, and now I’m currently pregnant with my second at 17 weeks today with my new husband. During our dating process I brought up my past, divorce and miscarriage etc.however it appears that he completely forgot about me telling him about the loss I experienced. This was noticed today during our normal check up with doctor. The nurse asked the normal 5 million questions they ask every time and each time it’s like I’m reliving my loss when asked if this was my first pregnancy or not. The nurse being so happy and bubbly didn’t hear what I said when I told her I had a miscarriage and belted it out for the world to hear “ oh a miscarriage?!, I’m so sorry!!” and was apparently news to my husband who was sitting right there. As soon as the nurse left the room to get the doctor he confronted me.

You never told me you had a miscarriage.

I know I have, because I can recall the pain it brings when I have to relive that moment, recall those painful memories.

I don’t know why, but it felt awkward. I told him that if he wants to know more I’m an open book and to please ask as many questions as needed, but he seemed closed off and distant. After the appointment I went to work and I haven’t heard from him since which if I’m not over thinking things is unusual. BUT being pregnant, I do over think everything. Anyone else have a similar experience?

It’s a private cross I’ve been carrying and I feel maybe I made it too private but not bringing it up again since that conversation over two years ago.