This is it

Hello everyone, this is yo announced that I have been trying for about 12 years to get pregnant 2 times and I miscarried, thought that I was pregnant as my last period was January 20 and was happy but didn't want to say anything so I call my family doctor and had blood work done , even my doctor was so happy as he new how much I wanted to because a mother , well guess What?? I am not pregnant and I'm assuming I started pre menopause we are in April and obviously I'm heading that direction I am going to be 49 with no children, so I lost , the chance of working for someone besides me , I no longer can dream about coming home to a child , but I accept that I guess that is not for me , so I want to wish all the beautiful ladies that are trying , do it and continue until the monthly visitor decides that it's time to focus on you , I want to say good bye to the group that help me with they're happy stories and everything else , take care